Can't sleep!

I tossed and turned most of the night. Preparations are almost complete and I will be meeting Teamir very soon.

Sunday, two of my bff's and a multitude of others threw a surprise baby shower for me at church. So many people knew and no one remotely slipped up. The footage of the surprise moment was silhouetted which is good because it involved a really ugly cry. I was already pretty emotional as this sinks in more and more. Church was quite weepy time as I thought about all of the needs God has met. So many details have been worked out. I wanted to be a mom to a baby. God granted the desire of my heart, years after that yearning began but when He granted it, He blessed me A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over. (luke 6:38) He reminded me He was there through so many little things - the nursery I wanted, clothes that are my taste, and loving friends who would come together on a rescheduled date with 4 days notice to send me off into motherhood. I am humbled. I still have so much to pack but Dave and I tied up so many loose ends yesterday. So here I sit on minimal sleep, needing desperately to go back to bed. I am praying for those with court and Robbin comes to mind. She is an amazing example of perseverence and drive and has taught me so much on this journey. I am up perhaps because I am supposed to be praying and praying I am.

So many beautiful things were said during the shower. But a woman read from her small group prayer journal and it was dated 5 years ago this week "please grant Dave and Ellen the desires of their heart to have a baby" - He has - His timing is perfect.

Peace